Sunday, May 29, 2011

So there' this boy 05-30-11

....isn’t there always...  Yeah I know. So I wonder if there is always a boy and always a problem why do I seem to never learn??? Frankly why do none of us.... men and women alike continue to make the same mistakes. There is always that one guy or girl who tends to have a hold on us. Or there is that feeling in the back of our head every time we meet someone that this person is different, that they are the one or that they will be the missing puzzle piece as far as love is concerned.

I know people in some twisted relationships I know one person who continuously forgives the person they love  and goes back to them even after the person threatened to kill them! Yeah, seriously! But that’s who they love and they keep going back.

I know another person who has had the person they love tell them they only want them for sex now and don't love them anymore but they continue to wait and hope that the person will realize that they love them.

Are we meant to be with other people? Is love truly forever? And how do you love someone and then end up with someone else..... Does this mean love dies and if so, does that mean love can't last forever? So many questions and no answers.

What about us makes us love someone who doesn't seem to love us even if they say the words... the actions don't always sink up. Why do we justify their intentions and actions, forgive them even when our closest friends tell us that the person is dead weight?

I mean lets be honest this isn't the notebook.... the odds of falling in love and marrying the person your meant to be with against all odds and then dying at the same time is highly unlikely! But then think of Johnny Cash and June (I think that’s her name) he died just months after her death... most people think it was of a broken heart.... So this means unless your Noah and Allie eventually one of you will hurt even if you don't cheat, lie, leave.... or just decide you don't love the other person anymore, one of you will die..... which presents the question once more.... are people really meant to be together for forever..... I mean I know our hearts and emotions are different than most animals and we develop attachments to people even if we say we don't want to....

I 've never understood how people say "I don't want a relationship right now".... granted I'm not the girl saying, "I want a boy friend!" You can't tell love or like or whatever what time to enter your life. It happens when it happens and anyone who uses that excuse to push someone away is a scared little bitch or doesn't really give a shit about the other person in the first place.  Because wheatear your 17 or 27…. On the fast track or headed nowhere fast it happens when it happens

But I still have no answer....

All I know is what I know. You love who you love and no one can tell you how to do that..... I am proof that it’s not up to you how your heart handles things but it is up to you how you act about it.... yeah its hard but sometime you have to hold your breath sneak to the bathroom, cry your eyes out and then wipe your face and do what you gotta do.

My final thoughts as far as love goes- We are all like children. All running to or from something. Trying to make sense of who we are and the world around us. Either trying to leave the pain or find the joy.

Peace one love I'm out.

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